Sunday, October 02, 2005
it's been a long time!
bullshiet gago friendster SHITS!!! they like included this program thing where people can see who viewed their profile. PUNYETA! my stalking days are over gago. OVER done and FINISHED. ima miss those days of friendster-ing all day and gossiping over other people's testimonials. hayy buhay. ohweell. guess it's a sign from God telling me that i really should get a life.
so much has happened this past few weeks.
intrams: GO XYGENZ GO! goddammit ima miss cheerleading so much. there's nothing like that rush you get when you perform. i love how it feels to run out of breath and to smile until it hurts and to scream your lungs out. i love how it feels to be around such a big group of people and feel so one with them. i've made so much friends through cheerleading. it's a nice feeling, knowing lots of different people who come from different groups and have their own worlds..but then at some point you get to bond over something. at some point there's some kind of common ground between you guys, and suddenly you feel like you guys aren't so different naman pala. i just wish it lasted all year round. kasi once intrams ends we stop talking to each other and start going back to our own worlds again, so it's like we just wait for intrams season to start again for us to start bonding again. howeeelll. and i think our batch is starting to have some unity na. we can get so apathetic sometimes kasi eh. and sometimes it gets so irritating. most of us included in the intrams shit work so freaking hard to get our routines perfect and our serves perfect and our sets perfect and our games perfect, and we practice for the longest time and sacrifice so much of our time only to perform and play on that day without support from our batchmates. that really shits. our players are so amazingly good, seriously lang. they really rock. and i know they work hard. haha. and un nga, it's nice to know na for the intrams this year people actually acted like they cared. ang sarap kaya ng feeling, being part of an incerdibly large amount of people, all working and cheering for the same thing. there's nothing like that feeling of solidarity. i love organized sports. HAHA LABO.
watched din the ateneo-dlsu game with sila gio. ateneo lost. that shits too, big time. ohweell. may araw din ang dlsu. hehe. go ateneo!
carla's birthday surprise yesterday. i feel so bad kasi it was kinda sabog. sobrang labo kasi ng plans and..wala lang, sayang tlga. i just wish we had worked on it and fixed shit earlier para hindi naman naging maayos siya. i just hope carla knows how much we love her, because we REALLY DO. we really really do. tapos hindi pa pumunta sila gio for godknowswhatreason, ohwell bahala sila. we went to eastwood after and just bonded, pero medyo sabog din yun kasi when we went to oj's they wouldn't give them alcohol and i know carla really wanted to drink for her birthday...and it just shits na hindi namin un nabigay to her. sayang pa that she left early, kasi when we moved to dencio's nagbigay naman sila ng cuervo to sila janyn. wahhh i'm so sorry carla. i love you.;) most of them left kind of early, like mga 10+, tapos we stayed pa so viv could hang out with her boys and we could sama her. hahaha i like those lsgh boys! haha astig sila. nice people. and we saw sila ramon! hehe strangely i kinda missed those guys. hehe. and marlo was sabog na so ang kuuuuliiit niya! hahaha patawa, i swear. pero pucha i got home like 1am na so now i think i'm grounded for the next two weeks. ohwell. i'll stay home nalang hanggang fair. 22nd pa naman un eh.
i think it shits that they get to us so much. i mean, we're so attached to them and i don't think they even give that much of a shit. i think naman the only reason din that we get affected so much is because we love them so much. ohhweell. if they're gonna let go it's not like there's anything we can do. i like to think we loved them as much as we could. ganun talaga buhay eh. the amazing things never last. but ima miss those guys, if ever they really go. i really love them. i really really do. noone's ever gonna replace them. i'll always keep the memories with me..atleast we had a year diba?
october na at wala parin mabuting nangyayari sa buhay ko. i.am.still.hung.up.on.him. and i know naman eh. i know naman talaga that there's no hope eh. i know naman talaga that it's never gonna happen eh. pero tao lang ako eh. it's not my fault that i can't seem to let it go. because i want to. i wanna be over and done with liking him so i can open myself up to new people and actually find someone worth liking. pero wala eh. whatever.
dream on, dyan. you're not getting him. you never will.
i watch myself fall apart as you s l o w l y fade away...
if you're going, at least warn me. i wanna be ready. that way it won't hurt as much.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARLA AND GELO!
Catches her Breath x 11:53 AM
