Sunday, September 11, 2005
turning point
esca's surprise party is over and done! hahaha we planned it for so long and now it is done. finito. over. finished. hahaha. it was a success naman, i guess...i like to think that he was really surprised talaga and he was touched with the whole barney theme and the little banner thing janyn did. we ended up doing it in nico's house since we weren't allowed to use hod...thanks nico! we love you;) soo anyways...after the surprise all we really did was eat and bum around. the boys had beer so they were drinking and messing around, and grabe, i swear, nagkakaron sila ng sariling WORLD once nagstart na sila sa music thing nila. i swear to God malupit talaga ang mga ito kapag nakahawak na ng guitar. HAHAHAHA;) but they're all really good, though. they have a lot of potential. i'm really proud of them;) after awhile we got bored so we just went outside and sat on the sidewalk right in front of nico's house and just bonded and talked. the boys were all inside singing their heads off (which is cute, honestly speaking), so all girls lang muna kami. we ended up talking about prom and the harsh realities of life and how unfair things can get sometimes...hay. life talaga, parang buhay. nico came out after awhile and bonded with us din. i swear to God i love that boy like hell. gio came out soon after and told us that MISH WAS COMING YAYY!! so we all just sat around and talked and bonded and eventually some of the boys came out and sat around nadin, but some of them stayed inside. mish came eventually tapos it took so long for gio to come out (awww nagayos pa!hehe), pero finally he did, tapos ayun. everyone just sat around again and talked..then we got bored and decided to move inside. so we went to the garden again and SAT AROUND AND TALKED AGAIN. hahahaha ang labo talaga ng mundo. there were lots of realizations and new ideas though. HAHA;) so i guess that's all we did...sat around and talked. pero we got to know josh! omg he's such a nice guy! i like him a lot! hehe;) and we all got to bond naman, in a way...so eventually mish's driver came na and we had to go, so we said bye to the guys and left na. ahaha i love those boys talaga.;) during the car ride we rolled down the windows and sang and talked and mostly just laughed...it's a different feeling, leaving the windows down and feeling the air on your face. i love friday nights. they make me feel so alive. we got to mish's house after awhile and ATE. AS IN ATE. all kinds of shit. ice cream, combos, mac n cheese, vienna sausage and rice, pudding...EVERYTHING. i love it when we bond over food. we learn so much about each other, i swear. we all got to talk to mish about some stuff and got clear about some pretty important issues...i love you mish. i'm so glad you're back. just so you know, i missed you like hell.:) we had to go home eventually...but we all talked in the car anyways and screamed and cried some more. haha labo nations please. i love my friends.;)
yesterday was carl's 7th birthday party. jess and marge came over and we just ate and bonded and talked more. hayyy buhay talaga minsan oh. hindi ko na talaga naiintindihan. "it always rains the hardest on the ones that deserve the sun."
naks ahh i'm so emo right now. HAHA WHO ISN'T, BTW??? it is in times like this that we all need to do a gio and listen to emo. diba?
i'm willing to take whatever he can give...i'm not asking for much anymore. i'm THIS desperate. i'm willing to take the instability and unpredictability and all the other shit that comes with it...that comes with him. i don't care. i'm fine with what he is. if that's what he chooses to be it's perfectly fine with me. i'm not asking for the dream...just him. that's enough for me.
as if. as if i can ever have him. AS IF. AS FUCKING IF.
i'll wait for you but i can't wait forever
chem lq tomorrow. once again, this shit is bull
btw: esca's birthday tomorrow. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAYMUND!;) take care;)
Catches her Breath x 3:00 PM
